Sometimes I Fail ... (I guess this is my first FailBlog)

A good friend of mine, and hugely influencial mentor in my life through Middle and High School once said... "Brett, how can you be faithful in the big things if you cant be faithful in the little things?" I replied "I dont know."

That being said lets reflect on the little things for a minute. What are the little things?(keep in mind that the little things can also be very big) Reading your bible, prayer, going to church regularly, etc etc.... Well what are the big things? Planting a Church, Leading people to Christ, Revolutionizing your school...

I'm gonna share something... Last night at the 6 pm worship service for Elevation (www.elevationchurch.org) I was sitting maybe 5 or 6 rows back on the right side. Pastor was Preaching and doing quite well if I do say so myself when he said.... "I want someone to come up here and read this passage." (note theres around 1000 people in the auditorium at this point it is a packed house.) At that instant my heart started BURNING I was like I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to do that. A second or two more and I see in my peripheral vision about 20 hands shoot up some people actually jumping up and down... but Pastor wasnt looking at them. I looked up and made eye contact and we maintained this Dead Lock of Eye Contact for what I counted in my head a good 3-5 seconds but sempt like an eternity. I was being stared down by Pastor Furtick, my heart was Burning and I knew what I was supposed to do.....

This is the part of the story where I would love to say "so I raised my hand went up on stage read the passage from James and because of my faithfulness 8000 people in the 900 seat auditorium got saved"...... however it didnt quite go down like that..... I choked. I froze. I couldnt move, breathe, or think, much less raise my hand walk up and then speak in a clear voice.

So I sat there I stared at Pastor and after a brief few seconds he looked away... He didnt show any hint of dissapointment however there had to be some underlying. I know how long we made eye contact and I know he was looking at me..... (I mean Im 6'5 Im a focal point in any audience, I garuntee he was looking at me.)

So he then turned picked someone else and I sat there for the rest of the night kicking myself. "Why on earth couldnt I move?".... Today however I've been evaluating my life as I frequently do and it dawned on me. "How can you be faithful in the Big Things (Like reading in front of a big Church) if you cant be faithful in the small things?(reading your bible praying and overall being a good steward of your time.)"

Are there any BIG opportunities that passed you by because you didnt have the faith to act because you're activity in the SMALL things was lacking?